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I just returned from my kind-of short vacation to Barcelona, Spain. The trip was amazing, my friends and I saw a few cool things, got pretty nice sunburns and spent lots of money. We walked a lot (in the flattest, smallest shoes because of the heat an ice-core person as me is not used to at all) and my feet, knees and hips still hurt awfully. But what I actually want to write about is not the beautiful vacation I had, but the sad feeling that seems to linger after every trip I take.

Like, imagine it:you've been together with 3 onderful people for the past week, sharing every second with them except the toiletry-stuff. Even if there's not always chatter, there's company. Then you come home, to a two-story house that's too large for two people and a cat. But neither the cat nor the other person is there and you're just all alone. It's quiet, tidy and cold. Nobody to talk to, not even the online people you want to tell about your vacation answer, and you just sit there. In front of your laptop. Not knowing what to do.
You just bought a pretty dress for 85 euros, but what for? Nobody cares anyways. You don't even look pretty in that dress, because you gained weigth lately and simply feel grosed out by just thinking about your looks. You spent nearly all the money you saved up the past 6 months for this holiday- it was your holiday to celebrate your graduation. It was a marvellous time, but your life in itself is just so senseless and stupid, and nobody cares. 

I get back to Germany to see that same-sex-marriage (I utterly refuse to call it 'gay marriage') is legal in all 50 US-states. What a great day for the USA! So of course, Tumblr celebrates with lotsa sweet phoos of happily new married couples crying in joy. I feel happy for those people, and I feel like crying too- once, for the big LGBTQ* rainbow which even reaches Texas, and second because I want to have someone to be happy about this with, too. I'm a spoiled brat when it comes to relationships, kinda have never been single the past 4 years. But right now.. it's just me and my laptop and I am fucking lonely. Wow, there we go, I said it.

now you can go and bitch all over me for being in a not-happy mood on such a great day (which isn't even a great day for peopel NOT from the USA. our motherfucking Chancellor doesn't like same-sex-marriage and adoptive rights because 'of the children'. She doesn't even have one herself. Fuck you Angela Merkel, bye

Ill be alone when I wake up tomorrow. Sure, I'll wake up in my own bed, at home, where I feel safe and comfortable. And I will feel alone and even (beware of a mighty word I'm swinging now, I apologize) unloved, because it just seems as if nobody cares. Deep down I know that some few actually care- like the people I just said goodbye to, whom I went to Barcelona with. But I'll sit in my bed and wonder anyways if it mattered at all whether I get up or not move at all. Without having to go to school anymore and without waiting for the Barcelona-trip to come, my whole existence is completely purposeless right now. I know this will change, but just right now, it feels like shit and I hate it.
I hate that I'm complaining, but I had to get this out.
  • Mood: Rejected
  • Reading: Steven King- the Shining
Lunar by TatsuyaKuroda
Lunar
link to version without 'blood'  sta.sh/01c6dkxwxe7k
//this HAD to happen. As soon as I graduate high school I fall into a merciless pit of nostalgia by watching my favorite childhood series.
So basically I binge-watched Danny Phantom together with JaroNigthmare - I mean, what else am I supposed to do?
Pretty sure some more fanart will follow. 
the series lacks blood, in my opinion. well that's what fanart is for, right?
riiiight.
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Monsterfalls!AU by TatsuyaKuroda
Monsterfalls!AU
I'M SO SO SORRY FOR SLACKING OFF SO MUCH LATELY.
It's not like I'm not drawing, I do a lot actually, just nothing I wish to upload anywhere. 
But since I really need to get back on drawing digital stuff I decided to finish this drawing which I already started in April but never really finished.

The Monsterfalls!AU is most likely my favorite Gravity Falls alternate universe. Mermaid-Mabel is just the cutest creation in the world. Take this as a try to cope wiht the current hiatus.

I still can't paint water.
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Confused Baby Ayu by TatsuyaKuroda
Confused Baby Ayu
I'm sorry for the inactivity lately.
I had to force myself to draw something, so here is some Ayu. I tried a bit new stuff with the colors.

I've felt absolutely shitty the past days..also the A-levels start next week.
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sooooo. these are some really awesome artist I'd like to share with the whole world /ifIcould.
The best Bros anyone will ever have, so fuck off they're mine! ///D :icondarkph33r127: :iconkristl-air:
Here I present to you, my dearest Husband: :iconmira-chii:<3
Other really impressive People:iconlavenderjade95::iconadagadeprata::iconbenji-blacksky::iconfreyleif::iconhimechan33::iconkiyo-keiju::iconhitoriamaterasu::iconfuruha:
'n ofc Mukuro has its Fran and Bel here, too. :iconcountess-valenthia: :iconanamnesisofmemories:
I bet there are more but I'm so damn forgettable >w<



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Sad are memories from the life i lived
Cannot go on, cannot go further
It has to end right here
For the things that i have done
All the girls i lost and won
Let me rest in peace at last

Will i find a way, will i find a place
Will you let me go in peace
Leave behind those dark days
Now i ask again, will you hear my cries
Then you realize why oh why
I must find a way to the other side

Hear them whisper calling out my name
The sentence is set, the hammer has fallen
I have paid the price
Sad to realize too late, death was meant to be my fate
All this pain will follow me
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I just returned from my kind-of short vacation to Barcelona, Spain. The trip was amazing, my friends and I saw a few cool things, got pretty nice sunburns and spent lots of money. We walked a lot (in the flattest, smallest shoes because of the heat an ice-core person as me is not used to at all) and my feet, knees and hips still hurt awfully. But what I actually want to write about is not the beautiful vacation I had, but the sad feeling that seems to linger after every trip I take.

Like, imagine it:you've been together with 3 onderful people for the past week, sharing every second with them except the toiletry-stuff. Even if there's not always chatter, there's company. Then you come home, to a two-story house that's too large for two people and a cat. But neither the cat nor the other person is there and you're just all alone. It's quiet, tidy and cold. Nobody to talk to, not even the online people you want to tell about your vacation answer, and you just sit there. In front of your laptop. Not knowing what to do.
You just bought a pretty dress for 85 euros, but what for? Nobody cares anyways. You don't even look pretty in that dress, because you gained weigth lately and simply feel grosed out by just thinking about your looks. You spent nearly all the money you saved up the past 6 months for this holiday- it was your holiday to celebrate your graduation. It was a marvellous time, but your life in itself is just so senseless and stupid, and nobody cares. 

I get back to Germany to see that same-sex-marriage (I utterly refuse to call it 'gay marriage') is legal in all 50 US-states. What a great day for the USA! So of course, Tumblr celebrates with lotsa sweet phoos of happily new married couples crying in joy. I feel happy for those people, and I feel like crying too- once, for the big LGBTQ* rainbow which even reaches Texas, and second because I want to have someone to be happy about this with, too. I'm a spoiled brat when it comes to relationships, kinda have never been single the past 4 years. But right now.. it's just me and my laptop and I am fucking lonely. Wow, there we go, I said it.

now you can go and bitch all over me for being in a not-happy mood on such a great day (which isn't even a great day for peopel NOT from the USA. our motherfucking Chancellor doesn't like same-sex-marriage and adoptive rights because 'of the children'. She doesn't even have one herself. Fuck you Angela Merkel, bye

Ill be alone when I wake up tomorrow. Sure, I'll wake up in my own bed, at home, where I feel safe and comfortable. And I will feel alone and even (beware of a mighty word I'm swinging now, I apologize) unloved, because it just seems as if nobody cares. Deep down I know that some few actually care- like the people I just said goodbye to, whom I went to Barcelona with. But I'll sit in my bed and wonder anyways if it mattered at all whether I get up or not move at all. Without having to go to school anymore and without waiting for the Barcelona-trip to come, my whole existence is completely purposeless right now. I know this will change, but just right now, it feels like shit and I hate it.
I hate that I'm complaining, but I had to get this out.
  • Mood: Rejected
  • Reading: Steven King- the Shining

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FauxusLight Featured By Owner 21 hours ago  Hobbyist Digital Artist
Hello,
how do you do..?
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SkyfireDragon Featured By Owner Aug 3, 2015   Artisan Crafter
Party Happy Birthday, Alex!
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TatsuyaKuroda Featured By Owner Aug 17, 2015  Student General Artist
thanks a lot ;D
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SkyfireDragon Featured By Owner Aug 17, 2015   Artisan Crafter
Welcome, a lot! Wink/Razz 
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Benji-Blacksky Featured By Owner Aug 3, 2015
Happy Birthday! You have a great one!
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TatsuyaKuroda Featured By Owner Aug 17, 2015  Student General Artist
I had, thank you! <3
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Benji-Blacksky Featured By Owner Aug 17, 2015
Very welcomes~!
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Ecclytennysmithylove Featured By Owner Aug 3, 2015  Student General Artist
Happy Birthday! Here's your cake! :iconbirthdaycakeplz:
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TatsuyaKuroda Featured By Owner Aug 17, 2015  Student General Artist
thankies!!<3
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Ecclytennysmithylove Featured By Owner Aug 17, 2015  Student General Artist
Your welcome!! :heart:
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